Summer AGAIN!!

Today summer starts officially in Italy! It has been summer weather for a while now, it's awesome.

This morning i finally booked my driver licence test: i'm a bit scared but i've still got time to study. 

This afternoon i spent some quality time with my little brother, Alessandro. And then, we were off to the beach.

Some days i just LOVE ITALY. 

Hard times pass by, as the good ones.

Things are getting harder and busier.
I knew going back home to live with my parents would not be easy. But i never thought it would be this hard. Things are not going really well. I lost my independence, my privacy and my peace.
And everything i have to do seems much more difficoult.
I'm really looking forward to move to Sweden.

I'm trying to study for the driver licence as much as i can and at the meantime i'm trying to get a part-time job (which is not easy at all in Italy at the moment), but everything seems to flow opposite my plans.

I guess i can just do my best and hope that everything goes how i want.

Back to school....just for one day!!

Today i went to my old College with my friend Benedetta to greet our teachers. It was actually harder than what i thought it would be.
In Italy last year of College can be pretty tough. You have to face an exam about all the subjects and you have to bring a thesis written by you. Three written tests: a italian essay, two pedagogy essays and a test about math, english, law and healt. After a week you have the oral test, that starts with your thesis and then is about all the subjects.
Last year by this time of the year i was almost feeling sick by the stress. I was really worried.
I guess it wasn't only the exam. After it you are suppose to be an adult. You have to face by your self, for the first time, lots of big and important decisions.
I think i was afraid of the meaning of that step as well. Today going back there, after all i've been through since i left that place, almost one year ago, was pretty emotional. It made me realise, how much things around me, i and my life has changed; and how different it has gone from what i had planned one year ago.

It was nice, though, to see the teachers and the rest of the stuf and see that we left something in them. They were all really happy to see us and proud for what we did in the past year.
The right way to say goodbye to this year and to say WELCOME to my new, up coming, life.

Small Cities Realities

Sanremo, my hometown, is a really small city. Everyone know each other. If something happens everyone will know. Everyone like to talk about each other and you end up to talk about somebody's else life and not live yours. That's one of the reasons i was really happy to leave this city. I was tired about the judgment of people i did not know even if i actually didn't care too much. Anyway today was the first time i went to the city with a friend. It's sunday and everyone were around.
Surprising, it wasn't too bad. I met some friends, not the best ones but still people that i had fun with. Of course i met people i didn't want to see as well. But at the end of the day i can say, that i don't know if i can resist here for 3 months but surely i could sqeeze out some more fun from those people i once use to hang out with.
Coming back here, and see the places and the people i left is strange. Nothing and nobody changed anything.
The experience i did, changed me a lot: changed my way of thinking, changed my plans for the future. It simply made me a different, and i hope better, person. All the people i met today, in 7 months, haven't changed anything in their lifes. They still hang out in the same places, do the same stuff, talk about the same things.
I absolutely don't think i'm better of them. I just think, that i'm nearly twenty, and i'm trying to do something real to make my future happen the way i want. I'm trying to work out something that suits me perfectly because i have to live with it for the rest of my life. I do not want my life to flow in front of me like a movie. I want to act in it, and i want to be a hundred per cent responsable of the way it takes.